Did I glimpse the face of God?

It's hard to believe
my sleep sticky eyes

So I blink in doubt

But even disbelief
Succumbs to the splendor of stars
and the beauty of love

You speak and you slash
Surprised, shocked, I do not run

In moments
my once whole heart
Is shredded

To you it is nothing less than normal
To me it is a throbbing lifelong wound

I saw blue sky
sweet and tender
bright and faithful

tucked between
rain and fog
clouds and drear

like a sudden
breath of hope

I do not float
For bitterness is heavy
And turns my heart sour with disappointment

Instead I sink
Beneath the ancient weight of regret and despair
Dragged toward the gnawing of dissatisfaction
Which is never fulfilled
No matter how many lives it consumes

My life is joy
written in the colors
of rain and rainbow
of death and life
of laughter and sorrow

I am painted through
with the fragrance of joy
bittersweet but hopeful
like the dreams of a crescent moon

If I could speak backwards
there's only one thing I'd say

It is love.

Hear the hearts crying for love
Feed the ones hungry for love
Hug those aching for love
Guide the ones searching for love

Grow your love strong and deep.

My voice feels trapped in this moment
Yet it echoes forward
into the someday backwards
So I will not silence love

Write your life in love.

Wicked soul that shines only in darkness
I long for my muse -
sweet star sprinkled skies bleeding into the hills
How can I know you without a reflection?
It is a short journey without a guide